"How do you see the trauma on other days?" she asked. No defensiveness, she needed to learn so that she could improve. And to worry her friends less. "But if it helps, I do not think that I am expendable. I'm sorry if I gave that impression." She didn't think she was expendable, that wasn't it at all. Some was ego... She was aware that she had to work on that. But the rest... She couldn't stand by when someone needed her. And when it was a friend there was some selfishness there too. She hated for her friends to suffer.

"As for having a friend at my back... If I am fighting, that is the hope." A small warm smile.