From the look on her face when he explained his idea of the kind of safety that he wanted... well the utter bafflement might explain a lot of their disconnect. Because she clearly was having trouble even imagining that. But she was doing her best, for his sake.
When he said the part about her getting back to her origin world eventually, she nodded. And when he finished she took a deep breath. "A few things. That choice you said I'd find I'd made? It's already been made. I find my way back there, to the Terra and Ven that have never had any other Aqua other than me? To the Isle where our students will be coming back and need Masters to teach them, to a world that thinks different is wrong... I already chose. That is where my home will be, where my home is. Getting back there, and staying there... that has been my goal for longer than I can remember. That world needs me as much as any other reality has and..." a soft voice as she looked out at the middle distance again. "I need it. That's why nowhere else has ever felt like home, Lea. Because I already have one. And I know it. It will hurt saying goodbye to the friends I have made along the way," she admitted. "But your realities all have an Aqua. And like you said... she'll still be me. She might not have my memories of my time with you.. but you will. And I am sure you will be able to bring her up to speed, emotionally."
She sighed a bit. Shook her head. "I understand what you are saying, and I will do my best not to push anymore. I just... as you say, one day I will be gone. This me. And I don't know what the me I am leaving behind will be like. I want to do what I can to make sure your world will stay safe."
She leaned her head back and rolled her shoulders a bit. "But I'll do my best to push you less about becoming a Master in that sense. But that doesn't mean going easier on you in training. Whatever your choice for after the battles are won... you still have to get to that point. If I get to leave here with you, that's easy enough. I can protect you all long enough to end it and tell you how to save your world's version of me to be there for you when I leave. But there is always the chance I can't. And I want to know you all will survive, if you have to fight without me there."
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Date: 2025-05-03 08:34 am (UTC)When he said the part about her getting back to her origin world eventually, she nodded. And when he finished she took a deep breath. "A few things. That choice you said I'd find I'd made? It's already been made. I find my way back there, to the Terra and Ven that have never had any other Aqua other than me? To the Isle where our students will be coming back and need Masters to teach them, to a world that thinks different is wrong... I already chose. That is where my home will be, where my home is. Getting back there, and staying there... that has been my goal for longer than I can remember. That world needs me as much as any other reality has and..." a soft voice as she looked out at the middle distance again. "I need it. That's why nowhere else has ever felt like home, Lea. Because I already have one. And I know it. It will hurt saying goodbye to the friends I have made along the way," she admitted. "But your realities all have an Aqua. And like you said... she'll still be me. She might not have my memories of my time with you.. but you will. And I am sure you will be able to bring her up to speed, emotionally."
She sighed a bit. Shook her head. "I understand what you are saying, and I will do my best not to push anymore. I just... as you say, one day I will be gone. This me. And I don't know what the me I am leaving behind will be like. I want to do what I can to make sure your world will stay safe."
She leaned her head back and rolled her shoulders a bit. "But I'll do my best to push you less about becoming a Master in that sense. But that doesn't mean going easier on you in training. Whatever your choice for after the battles are won... you still have to get to that point. If I get to leave here with you, that's easy enough. I can protect you all long enough to end it and tell you how to save your world's version of me to be there for you when I leave. But there is always the chance I can't. And I want to know you all will survive, if you have to fight without me there."