"Hey, don't blame me for that," Lea said. "Even I don't understand how she thinks most of the time. Xion logic is not normal logic. But like I said, I know what moral it's trying to teach, I just think it does a bad job of it. And anyway we're getting off track."
He sighed. "I didn't start this conversation because I wanted to have a debate with you about the nature of justice, or Keyblades, or anything like that. I started it because I wanted you to know where I stood. But you know the crazy thing? If I hadn't spent the last couple years bumping around the multiverse, this might have been a real different story. Aside from the recruiting kids thing, as I was back then, I'd have been right with you. So much of my life at that point had just been spent going from one mission or crisis to the next, what was a few more? But then I got hauled to Diatu."
"Or more accurately, I should say, got hauled to the Tenscore Kingdoms. But most of my time there was spent in and around Diatu Magicademy so just calling it Diatu is easier. I was super ticked off at first; bad enough being magically kidnapped for no good reason, but then they had the nerve to say I had to go back to school and try to micromanage me? Yeah I wasn't having that. Almost got in a fistfight with someone on day one. I did settle down eventually of course, and it started to suck less when more of my friends started showing up. First Xion, who was actually there before me. Then Isa. Then Roxas, and briefly Sora. I started to settle into my classes, got to catch up with everyone, found a great, quirky ice cream place, made some new friends; things were going good. I helped the efforts to find a way to send us home of course but as it started to become an actual possibility... I realized that I didn't want to leave."
"We were safe there. I had my friends with me. There was no crisis we had to deal with, no psychos trying to kill us... Yeah weird magical stuff happened sometimes, but for the most part the biggest worries I had were homework. And I'd never have believed as a kid how nice it would be to be in that situation. In the end it was Isa who helped shake me out of my indecision and get back on track."
"But then, speaking of tracks, Xion and I got swept up by the Voidtreker Express. And it was back to dealing with missions and crises. A new world every month, a new problem that someone needed our help to solve. Got used to that too, made new friends and met old friends there too. But there was never any feeling of wanting to stay. The only regret I had at the end was having to leave the friends I'd made there."
"I though Xion and I'd be going home after that but no, we got dropped here. In a situation that left both of us with a lot of time on my hands.And Especially recently, time to think about what it is I really want. And thinking back over everything, I realized that it was what I had at Diatu that I missed the most. Not the location, but... the feeling. Isa was right when he said we couldn't stay there, but that feeling? That's what I want out of life. I want peace; not quite the kind I had as a kid because there's no getting that back, but as close to it as I can get. And I want it at home, with my friends. So much of my life has been spent fighting, but I can't be like you, and make a career out of it. I'll help if it's needed obviously, but the life of a Keyblade Master isn't the life for me. Not now."
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Date: 2025-04-12 06:14 am (UTC)He sighed. "I didn't start this conversation because I wanted to have a debate with you about the nature of justice, or Keyblades, or anything like that. I started it because I wanted you to know where I stood. But you know the crazy thing? If I hadn't spent the last couple years bumping around the multiverse, this might have been a real different story. Aside from the recruiting kids thing, as I was back then, I'd have been right with you. So much of my life at that point had just been spent going from one mission or crisis to the next, what was a few more? But then I got hauled to Diatu."
"Or more accurately, I should say, got hauled to the Tenscore Kingdoms. But most of my time there was spent in and around Diatu Magicademy so just calling it Diatu is easier. I was super ticked off at first; bad enough being magically kidnapped for no good reason, but then they had the nerve to say I had to go back to school and try to micromanage me? Yeah I wasn't having that. Almost got in a fistfight with someone on day one. I did settle down eventually of course, and it started to suck less when more of my friends started showing up. First Xion, who was actually there before me. Then Isa. Then Roxas, and briefly Sora. I started to settle into my classes, got to catch up with everyone, found a great, quirky ice cream place, made some new friends; things were going good. I helped the efforts to find a way to send us home of course but as it started to become an actual possibility... I realized that I didn't want to leave."
"We were safe there. I had my friends with me. There was no crisis we had to deal with, no psychos trying to kill us... Yeah weird magical stuff happened sometimes, but for the most part the biggest worries I had were homework. And I'd never have believed as a kid how nice it would be to be in that situation. In the end it was Isa who helped shake me out of my indecision and get back on track."
"But then, speaking of tracks, Xion and I got swept up by the Voidtreker Express. And it was back to dealing with missions and crises. A new world every month, a new problem that someone needed our help to solve. Got used to that too, made new friends and met old friends there too. But there was never any feeling of wanting to stay. The only regret I had at the end was having to leave the friends I'd made there."
"I though Xion and I'd be going home after that but no, we got dropped here. In a situation that left both of us with a lot of time on my hands.And Especially recently, time to think about what it is I really want. And thinking back over everything, I realized that it was what I had at Diatu that I missed the most. Not the location, but... the feeling. Isa was right when he said we couldn't stay there, but that feeling? That's what I want out of life. I want peace; not quite the kind I had as a kid because there's no getting that back, but as close to it as I can get. And I want it at home, with my friends. So much of my life has been spent fighting, but I can't be like you, and make a career out of it. I'll help if it's needed obviously, but the life of a Keyblade Master isn't the life for me. Not now."