If she was going to teach him, he deserved to know.
"I wasn't certain I would be made Master when I was. I thought that I had an exploitable weakness that would prevent it. I have a fear of heights. Of falling. My Master told me that it wasn't having a fear or not having fears that made a Master, it was if the fear would Master me, or if I could, when I need to, master the fear. To save someone I can do what I need to, despite being afraid. Once the danger is over, however, it... sometimes takes me a bit to find my center again. I can push it aside for a time, if I need to, but resolving it sooner rather than later is better for everyone when I can do it without harming others. When I saw what looked like you falling... My fear of you getting hurt was worse than my fear of heights. But once you were okay and I had fallen..."
A deep breath.
"Mastery takes constant work, even after passing the exam. Clearly I still have more work to do."
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Date: 2024-11-21 07:20 am (UTC)If she was going to teach him, he deserved to know.
"I wasn't certain I would be made Master when I was. I thought that I had an exploitable weakness that would prevent it. I have a fear of heights. Of falling. My Master told me that it wasn't having a fear or not having fears that made a Master, it was if the fear would Master me, or if I could, when I need to, master the fear. To save someone I can do what I need to, despite being afraid. Once the danger is over, however, it... sometimes takes me a bit to find my center again. I can push it aside for a time, if I need to, but resolving it sooner rather than later is better for everyone when I can do it without harming others. When I saw what looked like you falling... My fear of you getting hurt was worse than my fear of heights. But once you were okay and I had fallen..."
A deep breath.
"Mastery takes constant work, even after passing the exam. Clearly I still have more work to do."